I guess I just needed sleep. My brain needed a break. At least I think I’ve finally found the courage to stop pursuing guys for a little while. If a guy likes me enough he should be able to come and sweep me off my feet. Until then I think I will be okay with being single for a while.
I’m so tired. I want a reason to go on, but I have a feeling I’m not going to get this reason so I’mma coast on auto-pilot for a while. Maybe sip back into that numb stage, that sounds nice. Give up on boys, and just keep doing what i need to to keep my scholarships. Eat alone, live a solitary life, just wander at all points of the day. This isn’t about me killing myself. No. I’m not good enough for that. I feel like all of you that read this think I’m begging for attention. Well, I’d be lying if I wasn’t, but I can’t get the attention I’m looking for from tumblr, unless one of you handsome lads comes and finds me, and sweeps me off my feet. ehh. I’d be content with conversation. Just someone who cares, or at least cares for an hour or so. Le sigh. Good night.